Breathe ,

Apr 13, 2021
2 min read

Sometimes, people surprise you and disappoint you. Sometimes, you mess up and let others down. I’m slowly learning that both desirable and undesirable things will happen. Maybe my path is slower or more difficult. Maybe it’s not as appealing as others for now. Maybe it’s not part of the majority but at least it’s original. It’s authentic. At least it’s mine.

It is a waste of time and energy to try to control things around mine. If I keep fighting to win, eventually I'm going to exhaust myself and burn out. I'm going to get lost in the maze of rights and wrongs and the grey areas in between until I forget where I came from. It’s better to choose peace and love over power struggles and ego battles. I’m slowly learning to take care of myself and look after my health and happiness. I'm not trying to live someone else’s story. I'm not desperately trying so hard to prove something to others. I'm living my own truth. I'm following my own pace. I trust in divine timing.

" You think you know what you've got buried down there, under the surface, but you don't always.”

I’m slowly learning that the only thing I can actually change is myself. I’m learning to be adaptable and flexible. I’m learning to discard the parts of myself that don’t fit and shed the layers that no longer belong. I’m learning to let things go and walk away from things that are hurting me. I’m choosing to conserve my valuable resource of personal energy and redirect it towards personal growth and development.

Sometimes, the people who were instrumental to you in the past no longer serve you in the present. Sometimes, you’re meant to move on without the people and places that have shaped you. Even though it hurts to say goodbye, you cannot remain in the same place forever. Once you outgrow your surroundings, you owe it to yourself to move on. And it happened to me. In order to reach my new dreams, I might have to give up some of my old ones. I might have to sacrifice the things once I thought I couldn’t live without and that’s okay. That’s part of growing.